Father,
You are the One who calls. You are the One who unites. I come before You as I am, with my dreams and my disappointments concerning fellowship.
So often I dream of a perfect fellowship, of a place where everything is warm, dynamic, and radiant. A place where everyone would understand each other and harmony would reign. A place like the first Church, about which we read:
“The multitude of those who believed were of one heart and one soul.” (Acts 4:32)
But when tensions arise, when unrest and friction appear, I immediately begin to doubt. Have I made a mistake? Am I in the right place? My human will falters, and I want nothing more than to run away.
Open my eyes, Lord, that I may recognize the profound truth: that it was not I who chose, but You who chose for me. That this community, this family, these relationships are not the fruit of my decision, but of Your call. Help me understand that You hold me together with others, even when I can no longer hold on myself.
You have called us together, so diverse, so different. People I would never have chosen for myself as companions on the journey. In this human impossibility, Your power is revealed. I no longer wish to rely on my own affinities, but on Your power, which turns the impossible into the possible.
I confess, Lord, I am caught in the trap of seeking the ideal fellowship. If it is small, I desire a larger one. If it is large, I dream of one that is small and intimate. If I am busy, I long for time to pray, and when I have time, restlessness seizes me, and I look for work. Save me from this constant dissatisfaction.
Today, You teach me that I will not find peace in seeking my own balance, but in service. Not in focusing on myself, but in looking to my brothers and sisters in need. Turn my gaze outward, toward those You have given me today.
“Whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all.” (Mark 10:43-44)
Help me to cultivate a heart without pride, the heart of a servant who does not seek his own but gives of himself. Do not let me run to imagined people, but anchor me among those You have given me today. Give me a heart that knows how to be with them in their moments.
“Rejoice with those who rejoice; mourn with those who mourn.” (Romans 12:15)
Show me my own faults before I begin to count the faults of others. Remind me that I am loved and have been forgiven, so that I, too, may love and forgive. Give me a love that transcends resentment and wounds.
“Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.” (1 Peter 4:8)
All this is possible only with You, only in You. This is why You call me to a constant posture of the heart, to conversation with You, who are the source of all unity and love.
“Pray without ceasing.” (1 Thessalonians 5:17)
Lord, I ask You, protect me from burnout, stress, and fatigue. I do not wish to give my brothers and sisters an embittered and burdened life. I want to give them a joyful one. This is my A Call to True Fellowship, which You give me today.
Amen.
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